Hello all. I realized
it was time for another update. I guess I was waiting for something
eventful to happen. Then I realized that my being alive and breathing
was an event enough for me to rejoice over.
The CAPD (Continuous
Ambulatory Peritoneal Dialysis) classes are coming along well.
Even though I've been through it before, it's like learning the
steps all over again. Last time (5 yrs ago) I was on the Baxter
system. Now I'm on the Fresenius system. Oh yes, on hemodialisis
only 3 times a week instead of four. I've got about two more weeks
of hemo. It takes a lot longer for me to get stuff through my
head. The last class I had was on a hemo day, it was hot and my
instructor's voice began sounding like a little mosquito whipping
around my ears. Toward the end of the class (which lasts 4 hours
at a time, 2 x a week) I just broke down and cried. I guess it
was a combination of it being hot, Mary's voice, not having had
any breakfast, and basically being sick and tired of being sick
and tired. It all culminated in my crying like a baby.
After class, I went
out and got an ice cream cone. Not just any old ice cream cone
but Snickers ice cream. I deserved it. I sat outside and savored
every minute of the ice cream, spitting out the peanuts for some
deserving bird's meal. It's really difficult controlling my fluid
intake during the hot summer time. I limit myself to 5 eight-ounce
glasses a day. Its hard, but I'm doing it. Oh yeah, I baked some
teriyaki chicken thighs; oooh so good- got to build up my protein
- pray that I'll have
the physical strength to do CAPD.
- pray that God will
send more people to bible studies.
- pray that I'll get
going on my book.
- pray that God's
creativity will flow into me so I'll write more songs. and
- pray that God will
send me a companion.
I think I'd like to
have one. I guess I've really not looked in that direction since
the passing of Charles. He has such huge shoes to fill. Actually,
whomever God sends has to be his own person. I've got to accept
him, plus he's got to accept me like I am. Being the perfectionist
that I am, that aint easy, with all my other idiosyncrasies. Contrary
to popular opinion, I'm not an easy person to live with. Just
ask my children if you don't believe me. Long list huh, but God
knows my heart and now you know too. More than anything, I want
to keep my ear close to God's mouth so I'll be sensitive and obedient
to his voice. He is preeminent in my life.
Our recent bible study
was in Genesis 17. The key thought was how Abraham obeyed God.
Even though Abraham didn't know anything about circumcision, because
God had established that every male be circumcised. The key phrase
is in verse 23. The selfsame day as God had said unto him.
May you and I hasten
to obey the voice of the Lord. God gives us the vision; we come
up with the plan to implement that vision. Just be sure it's God
speaking to you and that it's not the residual of those collard
greens, yams, and fried chicken you ate and laid down on and had
a cornbread vision (or could it have been the baked beans?)
Love you so much,